More Feelings

Hello Everyone! This is going to be another long deep post, just a heads up!

I'm going to be honest, I am thinking about closing my blog. This isn't because I don't want it anymore but it's because I have turned my blog into a job, which if you read my last post, you would know that when a hobby turns into a job, it becomes something to put off and another thing to worry about. It's got to a point where I literally think "ugh, it's time to write another post" and I have a strong feeling that this has come across in my posts. I used to enjoy writing posts, but then I started writing posts that I would appeal to more people, about things that I didn't have an interest in. 

Also, loads of people have said my posts are good but if don't have confidence in them, they can't go very far! If I wasn't me and this wasn't my blog, I wouldn't it these posts because to but it plainly, they're boring. I don't have a very exciting life or many interests worth reading about, so why I have a blog is beyond me. 

People who have blog dedicated to there interests are the ones who do well because it comes across in the posts how much enthusiasm and genuine interest they have. For example, Beauty blogs are always amazing because they are run by beauty enthusiasts, but me, I don't wear much make-up so I have nothing to talk about, nothing to review! I am genuinely interested in Beauty but haven't tried many products. 

What I have distinguished from having a blog is that you needed to know what you're aiming for, how you want the audience to feel and who that audience will be. But because I am extremely indecisive, I'm not aiming for anything and I think that makes my blog pointless I guess.  

My orginial purpose of my blog was to be orginial and unique, to not have a subject theme so that I can talk about anything and everything. Yes, it is extremely entertaining writing about anything you want but it can also lead to extremes on both ends: Extremely exciting or extremely boring posts, and my post seem to be on the extremely boring side as I literally don't have anything going on in my life other than exams.

Which makes me think that thats why my blog is boring, because I am too young to have something worth blogging about. I'm not old enough to go and do exciting things on my own, I'm not old enough to go on road trips and meet new people, and these are genuinely what make-up an interesting lifestyle blog that are worth reading about.

Lets be honest here, who really wants to read about a 14 (almost 15) year old girl's life?

Who wants to read about what I'm doing in between exams?

I wouldn't.

Referring to a previous point, because I have kept my posts to a certain schedule  It makes me reluctant to write posts. (I'm a teenager: It's our nature to rebel against things we need to do) So maybe I should un-schedule my posts? So that if there is something I want to write about, I will and if there isn't, then I won't. 

My mum always says that when you cook a meal, you are less hungry when it's ready, so maybe it's the same with blogging? I am the one who writes the posts and so I am the one who is not interested in them, because I know what's in it, I guess? (did that even make sense)
Overall, No, I'm not closing my blog but I won't be posting as often and yes I am sorry for that but if you have something for too long you get bored of it, so if I start to have a break, my interest will hopefully return.
What do you think? 

Thank you so much for reading, I needed to say this.
Carys xx
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Nail Varnish / Catch up!

Hello everyone! It feels like it's been forever since I last posted! I didn't post of Friday because It was the first night I literally had nothing to do: no revision, no homework. Just relaxing and looking forward to having this next week off. Also, I was ill with a typical cold so I had to take a break, sorry!

Ok well, I have decided that this 'Music Monday' thing isn't going too well! I have missed about 3 weeks of it and if i'm honest, I don't enjoy writing them as if you put a hobby into a schedule, it turns into a job, and because I procrastinate that means it's another thing to put off! So I might just post about my favourite songs when I feel that there are songs that need to be recognised. 

Now that's out of the way, lets get on with the post!

If you have read some of my previous posts, you would know that I completely feel in love with the 'Kelly Brook' Nail polish range (you can read about it here) and today when I went on a cheeky shopping trip, I finally found them in Newlook, right on the bottom shelf!

This is pobably the nicest nail polish I own! It's such a nice summery colour and just generally makes me happy. It is a really rich peach colour, however leaning more towards orange than pink. Obviously, because it's peach it's called 'Peach Pop" which is a cute name for a cute colour. My friend (Holly) also bought a Kelly Brook Nail polish which happened to be 'Pretty n' Pink' and it was a really nice bubblegum pink if you're interested.(I think I might be into Peach this month seeing as I also bought a peach top)

I am aware that you can get a peach colour in pretty much every nail polish range, but I promise you this is like no other, it's the prettiest peach there is :)

Well I hope you enjoyed this and I shall speak to you soon!

Carys xx

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My Little Project

Hello everyone!! So today I took a day off school because I'm walking death, but I thought I would still do a post :) 

*This maybe foreign to some people unaware of youtubers so I'll try my best to take that into account*

Basically, a 'youtuber' is someone who makes videos successfully on Youtube. I quite like youtubers because I'm a nosy person. I like to see what people are up to and what their lives are like. Do you understand? because this is where it could get confusing. If two youtubers do a collaboration (when they do a video together) they could sometimes get shipped. This means that viewers (mostly hormonal teenage girls) imagine them in an relationship that could be like a friendship or love interest. When two youtubers are shipped, they then have a ship name, which tend to be the two youtubers names merged together. For example Alfie (PointlessBlog) and Marcus (MarcusButlerTV) get shipped together to create 'Malfie' as they have a very close friendship. Right so that's the basic's, lets get on with the post ^.^

So, I just happen to love Alfie and Marcus so logically, I thought why don't a make a Malfie scrapbook? and That's exactly what I have done :) 

So, here it is! I have basically spent the last few weeks creating this scrapbook which I plan on sending to them! I have really enjoyed making this scrapbook and I shall be sad to see it leave. But it relaxed me a lot from all the exams happening. 

I just wanted to share with you what I have been doing when I'm not on the internet, which is rarely I must admit. 

Goodbyeeee!

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Day out In Brighton

Hello everyone! Well, If you have seen my previous Monday posts you will know that I normally do 'Music Monday' but unusually, I have a pretty exciting weekend that, if it's ok, I'd like to share with you :) 

Well, So on Saturday me and my friends Becca, Holly and Lauren went to the pretty coastal city of Brighton to see The Midnight Beast (which was ironic because there gig was actually at midday) and Bastille at The Great Escape Festival! I used to go to Brighton a lot when I was younger so It was nice to revisit a part of my childhood with good friends and great bands!

Two of my favorite bands in one place at the same time woah

We joined the queue for The Midnight Beast as we were standing and I'm glad we did when we did because within about 10 minutes the queue had reached the end of the high street and we actually made it into the local newspaper for road blocking! 

So, since the last time I went to Brighton I was about 6 or 7 (a good 8 years ago woah) so obviously I was too young to understand why Brighton was so popular with the men and just my luck, there was a ladyboy festival on close by, it was quite interesting though. 

Long story short, The Midnight Beast were absolutely amazing as expected, although I don't think I have ever been hotter in the crowd! We all came out a bit starstruck as The band had pointed at us in songs numerous times. But we headed to the stage door to see if we could meet them but unfortunately everyone had had the same idea and we didn't get to meet them (just yet) Although, behinds there was a gay strip going on in the middle of the street. My innocence is gone and I'm officially disturbed.

From left to right: Me, Lauren, Becca
(Holly doesn't like photos so she took it instead)

 So now we had the awkward couple of hours to kill before Bastille at 7:30 pm. So we decided to get some lunch and head down to Brighton Beach :)

It was so so nice to finally it sit down after the 5 hours of standing, and next to Brighton pier was a bonus! It was weird because even though TMB (The Midnight Beast) had apparently left, I still felt that they were in Brighton but me being obsessive, I thought it was just another one of my fantasy's.

We headed back to the venue's and wondered around for a while, just exploring, When I looked to my left to see Ashley (one of the band members) overtaking me! He was then followed by the rest of the band and the band's girlfriends! Obviously by this point I was freaking out and the dancers who had gone in front of us started to laugh. Unfortunately, I didn't go up to them as I got a vibe that they didn't want me to as they were with there girlfriends, So me and my friends kept our distance and pretended to watch the street act that they were watching. We then hung around for a bit just discussing what had actually just happened when there Van started to leave. The van had windows that you couldn't see in but they could see you, so I don't even want to know what they thought of us! But I just gave a sweet wave and turned my back to them (nicely of course, just to show that I'm not trying to stalk them)

The van started to move but then came to an abrupt stop, to which Stefan Abingdon (my inspiration and favorite band member) got out of the van to come and see us! I got a hug, we had a little chat and a joke or two, and then this happened!

I get butterflies everytime I see this because he means so much to me and I have been waiting to get a photo with him for almost two years! My eyes are saying 'oh my god Stefan Abingdon is holding me' so that's why I look a bit murderous!

Ok, all joking aside ,this was the actual time they left and I was over the moon with what just happened! Thank you Holly for taking the picture! :) 

By this time it was Bastille next! Which really topped of the day as they were incredible, definitely one of the best concerts anyone can ever experience, I can't wait to see them again in October!

We were seated and this was a pretty good view!

Well that was my day! It was full of celebrities (we bumped into Rizzle Kicks at least twice) tame squirrels  (they would just climb up you leg to get food in your hand) and really nice people! (everyone is Brighton is SO nice, we could talk to anyone and get along with them, we even made some new friends)
Sorry, this post has been so long, but I hope you enjoyed it :)
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'Gifted and Talented' rant

Hello everyone!! It's Friday, and unlike most of the teenager population that are out partying, i'm sitting here with a cup of tea writing a blog post. Just the way I like it :)

Well this is literally going to be a rant about the school scheme of 'Gifted and Talented', which is when the best and clever-ist students get picked to do this amazing opportunity that puts them one step ahead of the rest of us. I absolutely hate this scheme because whats the point in it? It makes every other student feel not good enough and I felt like that for the majority of year 7, 8 and 9. But now I have just learnt to resent it. Surely, the less academically able students (who try) should be getting the opportunities to encourage further study?  I understand that most people don't want to try in school and that's why they aren't as clever, but people who obviously want to do well but find it hard should be rewarded for there efforts in a way that will help them in other areas. I understand some people think "well you can't not reward the smart students because they'll stop trying" Yeah of course they should find a way to reward them, but I don't agree with giving them opportunities that they could already get without the 'gifted and talented' scheme. Opportunities like college trips or something should be offered to those who would maybe not find it so easy to get noticed for opportunities like this normally. 

I understand that this may come across as jealously etc but honestly it's not, in fact I recently got chosen for Gifted and Talented in Spanish (I don't even know how), but I immediately decided not to go on it because I hate everything about the fact they single you out.

All my school cares about is the smart ones who will reflect highly of the school, the others they couldn't give a crap about. 

Well, I just needed to say that because it annoys me so much! At least it's the weekend and I'm seeing The Midnight Beast and Bastille tomorrow so I'm a happy girl :-) 

Have a good weekend!!

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Blogger to Blogger

Hello!

So If you read m extremely short last post, it was about my very first exam, that happened to be a Biology one if anyone was interested. (probably not) Just a little feedback, It went so much better that expected! My school had stamped the word 'exam' into my head that I literally thought it would be impossible and that I would have panic attack (I almost did) but it was a nice surprise to sit the exam and think "I know this", but I won't get my results back until August 21st - 23rd.

Rolling on with the post, One day a couple weeks ago when I was scrolling through Zoella's youtube videos and I cam across a very helpful video about Blogging tips from her and Louise aka SprinkleOfGlitter. I thought it was extremely useful and was basically a list of what I said in my 'Feelings' post. 

*Credit goes to Louise at : SprinkleofGlitter

and Zoe at : Zoella280390 *

I hope this video does help you, because both of them have got very far from there blog so it's coming from experts here :)

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Change of plans

Hello Everyone! Well It's Monday again... you know what that's means?! Time for Music Monday * enthusiastically claps* but unfortunately there has been a change of plans, I have my first ever exam tomorrow and this means that I have sorted my priorities, and revising has hit first place on my list (blogging is a close second)

I have another two exams within the next week so I have another week full of endless revision nights, but I promise I will try my hardest to regulate the blogging :) 

Sorry

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Topshop Top

Hello Everyone! So it's this time of the week - Friday! and although we had a bank holiday this week, It still feels like 8 days since our last break, don't you think? or is it just me...

So a couple days ago I finally got some money and decided to have look at my wishlist of all things too expensive for me, and I decided to get this Cat face Top from Topshop!

A cheeky smile and bit of hair oh
I bought this for £16 and It's my new favorite top! The fabric is so so smooth to a point where I think that it would literally go against the rules of physics to crease. Coincidentally, I bought this top literally on the same day Zoella appeared in a picture wearing it! I genuinely thought we were somehow mentally connected (or it's just a really nice top, probably that) I always buy tops and jumpers a size too big because I prefer a baggy fit, and this is a really perfect size. It is baggy but at the same time hugs your figure and it's genuinely perfection in top form! If you like this top then try and find it in Topshop because unfortunately I can't find it on the website anymore, Nothing worse than finding something you like and it disappears!

As you can see, The back of the top and the sleeves are a different colour to the front, which is a lovely little detail. The front of the top is a lovely light Indigo whilst the sleeves and back is a clever mixture between Gray, Blue and Green. 

 and purely because I love this top so much... 

It's me hi 

Hope you all had a lovely week!

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Sneaky Secret

Hello Everyone! I have a little secret to tell you that I haven't told anyone... I'm so sneaky!

Well, for the last couple of months I have been thinking about making a Youtube channel, as it looked fun making, editing and uploading the videos. So I couple of weeks ago, I just dived right in and started filming my first ever video! It went quite well and so I thought, I'll just jump straight to editing and see how it looks then. I felt so professional using all these fancy effects and programs!

Finally, my first ever video was fully edited and ready to be uploaded! It was so exciting. But then once it uploaded (after 67 minutes what) I came over a bit panicky and anxious and well, it didn't really feel right and I soon discovered I wasn't comfortable yet with everyone watching my videos. This is so weird because I have spent ages dreaming of creating a youtube channel and the thought of even one subscriber excited me! But when it came round to actually being able to watch a video I made with my own two hands, I wasn't ready. I think it was because it was a introduction video and It didn't really reflect my bubbly personality (If I don't say so myself ;))  and so this meant that it wasn't really me.

All in all, I discovered that making youtube videos is far different from watching them (and a lot more stressful too!) but I found a new love for editing so that's a bonus. Now that I know whats it's like to own a youtube channel (briefly) I think I shall just stick to writing blog posts and working on my blog :) If I did get anywhere in life, I'd want it to be for my blog as I am more comfortable being behind the screen than in front. I'll just stick to watching youtube videos for a while!

Although I'm not ready for a serious youtube channel just yet, doesn't mean it's not completely off the cards. I don't doubt that I will probably still upload funny videos of me and my friends if I wanted to.

Do you have a youtube channel? How do you feel? How is it going?
Let me know ♥

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Music Monday #3

Hello Everyone! I hope you have all enjoyed a lovely (and very sunny) bank holiday! This week is the third in the series of 'Music Mondays' - just a quick re-cap if you don't know what 'Music Monday' is, Basically I just say my top 5 favorite songs of the week, as they pretty much change weekly! :) 

1.Bastille - Of the Night 
This song is amazing - They mixed together Rhythm Is A Dancer and Rhythm Of The Night in one successful song! 

2. Bastille - Requiem for Blue Jeans

Yeah, I have been listening to Bastille a bit this week... Ages ago, they covered 'Blue Jeans' by Lana Del Rey (another one of my favourite artists) but they put their own personal twist on it! To make this song even better, at the end they faded into 'Flaws', another population song by Bastille.

3. Hoodie Allen - #WhiteGirlProblems

Hoodie has popped up again! This is old an older album called 'Leap Year' and I just really like this song because he mixes an old stereotypical pop song into his rap song, it was quite a risky decision but it worked out really well! :)

4. Muse - Follow Me

I'm pretty sure I have mentioned this song before, but I still absolutely love this. I'm not normally fan of this type of music, but Muse is the only exception. 

5.  Ben Howard - Old Pine

This is such a beautiful song - I recently bought his album and I don't regret it! Ben Howard really is talented. 

Well, there is a wide range of music genres there haha! I hope you enjoyed this post! 

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p.s I need to share this with you! Basically, I love youtubers, my favourite is pointlessblog aka Alfie! and he replied to me on youtube on Saturday night, I still can't believe it! Ok sorry bye x

My Reaction To Your Reaction

Hello everyone! Well this post is mostly a response to my last post so to understand this you'll need to read that, sorry!

My last post was mainly about how I felt recently towards my blog etc etc and ironically, it was probably one of my post popular posts which is amazing as I felt like it wasn't just me, other bloggers had/are feeling like that now and people understood what I was saying (I thought that post was one of those things that only sounds good in your head, but obviously it sounded good in other people's too!) 

It was so nice to say how I felt and for people to relate and understand, I thought I might of had at least one mean comment but all of them were lovely and supportive :) 

So thank you everyone for it, it really blew me away! Hope you all enjoy this 3 day weekend, you all deserve it ♥

*Excuse the awful hand-writing*

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'The Blog Wall' / Feelings

Hello Everyone! So I just need to say some things that have been on my mind lately, I hope you don't mind. I'm going to let you know now that this maybe confusing :)

Basically, You know when athletes (well, mostly runners) push themselves too hard mentally and they hit something called 'The Runners Wall'? If you don't, it's when a runner would hit a mental boundary which they find hard to defeat and stops them from running any further because they think "I literally can't do this anymore" and I think I've hit that but blogging-wise. I'm not thinking "I can't do this anymore" but I have noticed that my posts aren't doing as well and if i'm honest, nobody seems to be interested in them. I've never really been a positive thinker when it comes to doing things, I have never actually thought "I can do this", but I have always been really positive about blogging, always trying my best (when I can, I mean some posts haven't been any good because of issues such as family problems, no internet etc etc) but recently I'm just finding hard to write posts as I feel nobody really wants to read them. 

((I'm not saying I don't enjoy blogging, because I do a lot. I love thinking of new post ideas, writing and publishing them because I always get a weird sense of achievement like "I'm finally publishing something that is mine" and the fact that people take time to read them and comment on them means more than anything to me because it means some people have taken the time out of their lives to talk to me and give me feedback. There is no better feeling than when a post you actually believe is good does well and not only you, but other people are enjoying reading it too.But sometimes I write posts just to get it out on time, so that I don't miss a publishing date rather than thinking "is it any good?"))

Obviously, I am beyond grateful that people even stop scrolling to read my posts because If I was in your shoes, I don't honestly think I would stop because, well I don't think there is anything all that special about my blog, but then again there is nothing all that special about me and yet I still have friends. 

**I don't even know what I'm trying to say here, and I'm trying to say whatever it is i'm saying in the best intentions and I really am trying my hardest not to sound up myself. **

Ok, this is harder than I thought, right um basically my blog has it's ups and downs. For instance, I would have a really successfully month or so where my blog really takes off, but then I have a period of about 2 months where my blog just kind of sits there awkwardly in the corner. I don't own a blog to aim for fame, I have a blog because I what to make someone happy or at least entertained, because whenever I see something that makes me happy, I get inspired to do the same (hence why I made a blog because I was inspired by Zoella) so I'm not hanging on to every post hoping that it will fly sky high, but sometimes I just feel slightly dissapointed as It might of flopped, like most of my recent posts. All good things have to come to an end eventually (I'm not closing my blog if you were worried) so maybe I was so used to flying high that when I got back to reality it hurt? I think I have been so wound up in how many views each post gets that I have kind of forgot about the actual point of blogging: To publish a piece of writing that you wrote onto the internet, not compete for how many views each posts gets.((I'd just like to stress the fact that just because I'm going to stop focusing on views, does not mean I am eternally grateful for the views ok)) So, I'm going to take a step back, and forget about the views and concentrate on the quality of the post, kinda like a new me? :) 

So Hello, My name is Carys and I run a blog called 'Slightly Awkward Ginger' based on the fact that I'm ginger and awkward, but only slightly ;)

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p.s I understand I have contradicted myself about 7989284812 times but I just needed to get that out there, I hope you understand me and don't think I'm up myself! 

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